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Disclosed

Imagine being 25 years old and hearing your mother’s voice for the first time.

I lived that last week and it was as incredible and indescribable as you might imagine. Even more incredible has been learning how much we’re alike, from taste in music to favourite wines, the way we drink our coffee and even having similar tattoos. It’s been nothing shy of a dream come true. We even look alike.

Communicating with my brothers, my little sister and my uncle has been one of the most amazing experiences I will ever have, falling only behind F’s arrival. I can’t wait to meet them, hold them and see them face to face. I have played it over and over in my mind my whole life, but now I have images to go with it.

I am the oldest of seven kids, aunt to two nephews and niece to two uncles. Though it has been a bit overwhelming, I feel complete now – at peace, even – that I have this knowledge and this new connection with people who are a part of me. It is still surreal, my excitement is still electrifying and I don’t think anyone could beat the smile off my face.

I have lived a very blessed and privileged life… In fact, I have been totally spoiled by two selfless people who have given me all I ever wanted and more (except for that pony, but they did fund many years of riding lessons). While many people live their lives without support – with no family – I am now fortunate enough to have two families of which I am a part of. My son has earned 4 additional uncles and a beautiful aunt, a new grandmother and her husband. He has two new cousins to grow up with.

The process of the adoption disclosure was long and tedious. After two years of waiting, a phone call changed my life. I laid in bed on the weekend F turned three and browsed her photos, fingered the writing on her letter to me… When we connected online last week, the world stopped turning and it’s not quite up to speed again. And if things never go back to the way they were, that would be just fine.

From being the fake kid, to being Darlene’s daughter I’ve come to believe that fairy tales do come true.

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